less fat. more happy.



















So I gaave up on weightloss after awhile, & I gained back a lot of my lost weight. I so freaking ready to get back to working out & doing work again. Day one of starting over again? I guess so, 195.2 lbs. Goodnesssssss
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“If you really knew me”

I got chosen for this program at my school thats like the show, it’s called be the change. It’s to help students talk about life & get to know one another. This has come at such a great time honestly I am so excited :)
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I’m back.

I’m mad at myself for slacking off on my diet & losing sight of my goal. This isn’t a cliche want of every teenager, I need this to gain happiness & finally be content with myself. I’m done wondering if he would’ve dated me if I weighed less, or if I could make the team if I could actually run, or if they talk about how big I look in my dress when I walk away. 

It’s now or never, & it is all starting now. 
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I want to be so skinny, so that it kills him when he thinks about how he let me go. I want new loves to fall head over heels for me. I want to wear just a v-neck and jeans and look amazing. I want to walk around in my bikini at the beach and be flawless. I want those small thighs and that tiny waist. I want to go to the mall and know every store carries my size and every item of clothing will look amazing on me. I want to hear the “Wow! You look great!” and the “Did you lose weight?!” I want to wear big sweaters and look like the cutest, tiniest little thing. I want hear them say “Wow, she’s beautiful.” and not just “She’s really pretty, but kinda big.” I want the jealous stares and turning heads. I want to be comfortable where ever I am, no matter what I’m wearing.

perfectlysmallandskinny:

I want to be that girl. That pretty, skinny, flawlessly happy girl.
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Today.

Was the first day of my Junior Year.

& The day me and my boyfriend broke up.

& YOU KNOW WHAT? This bitch is gonna regret losing me when I get hot from losing weight.
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